September 23, 2002
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As I think back I remember distinctly having a personal bully. Someone who followed me around everywhere I went, taunting me. My bully would tell me horrible things about myself. Tell me how worthless I was and how I would never amount to anything. Worst of all the bully would make me back down when other kids teased me and tested my endurance of the horrid actions of children that age. When you’re that age, life is rough. My bully was the worst. She hated me, she despised everything I stood for, and I hated her also. Popularity was everything and my bully wasn’t going to let me have any of that. My bully kept me from having friends; even acquaintances were few and far between. I was too dark for anyone to really want to get to know me. My bully wanted me to be sucked into a dark, deep, depression and esteem hell that I would never escape. I did finally escape, it took 2 suicide attempts and many therapy appointments even some medications sprinkled in but I finally got rid of my bully. She no longer resides inside me; she is now a memory that I choose to ignore. Ten years later and her powers have ceased to affect me the way they did back then. I am now an outgoing, happy, self-confident adult, sans my personal bully.
This was a paragraph that I had to turn in for my English class. The instructor was quite impressed and said that the piece was "moving and powerful". At any rate, it really just goes to show that I truly had NO friends growing up!
ANYWAY! on a lighter note...IT'S FALL!! so.....
Ok then, Have Fun!!!
Comments (9)
Somewhere this weekend, I can't remember, I heard a friend say, "You know the child inside you that made decisions for you when you are young can be overruled by a new decision now." Sounds like you've done that.
fabulous paragraph. i need to get rid of my bully, big time.
TGIF-Thank Goober it's Fall. I have had enough of this heat..not that it's going anywhere..
What an awful thing for you to have gone through but it looks like you are stronger because of it.
Thanks for all the book recommendations! I will definately try those out! I'm looking forward to reading the rest of the Left Behind series, I will start Nicolae tonight.
Have a great day!
not only did i have an inner bully but i had a few outer ones to go with. THey mdae for quite the tag team. Im glad you got rid of yours. Mine didnt take as much. YOu are strong!
belinda
Your instructor was right. isn't it amazing what we put ourselves through, and for what? A four-year long fish bowl (mine was high school). Brightest Blessings and Happy Autumn!
Mandrake
Geez. Don't we ALL have that awful bully in us??? I'm so impressed at your ability to write about that evil person in such a way where it's almost scary...
I think you've managed to skillfully put into words what many of us have experienced
- hats off to you for that!
Great essay :- ) And I like your background too...
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