July 15, 2003
-
Sunburn and a Strong Desire
Yep, I have a sunburn, but at least it means that I was outside being active for once instead of inside a house or hospital or funeral home…etc…etc…. For those new readers and to refresh the memories of fathful long-time readers this has been my life since Nov of last year;
Sorry about the punctuation…terribly sorry..
Nov- Get a call that FIL has a fatal brain tumor….he’s given 9-12 months without treatment…12-?? months with treatment. FIL goes into surgery to remove the tumor.
Dec- Go to FL to see FIL…
Jan- FIL gets MRI results back and is told that the tumor has regenerated…sMIL finds an alternative treatment for FIL..FIL starts treatment and is told he’s got at least 3 more good years.
Feb- The DH’s grandfather is found dead 3 days after my birthday…He had a heartattack while The DH’s grandmother was out that morning.
Mar- FIL seems to be about the same..the death of The DH’s grandfather and his own health concerns have sent him into depression
Apr- FIL’s birthday…we were scheduled to go down, but I had my own health concerns so we postponed the visit
May- FIL is around the same, a little worse than when last saw him in Dec, but nothing too bad.
Jun- FIL isn’t doing too well…his second gamma knife treatment didn’t go so well; he had a brain bleed and is now doing chemo, but the doctors aren’t too hopeful….We hurry down there. After we come back I am informed that my own father was in the hospital for observation for a bad cold…this is not good, the first sign of the beginning of the end is when you have to be hospitalized for a cold…Stress level is now upped by 2 pts with this development alone.
Jul- FIL finally passes after a hard fight..Back down to FL for the funeral.
Now, during all this time The DH is having meetings at work about the soon-to-be terminations of some of his staff..so The DH is a little stressed about his own job and all the time he’s taken off in the past few months. His stress level has been raised 5 pts by all that bullshit.
My strong desire is to be back into a normal routine…I just want some sort of normal routine to get back to. I’d also like to finally move out of this gawd foresaken house and get on my farm and leave the city life to the yuppies…but right now, normal is all I’m lookin’ for. Packing this house is NOT normal and I don’t want to consider that right now…so I’ll look for houses later…where’s my iced tea and cigarette?
This post is just to organize all my thoughts about the past, what 7,8 months? My mom was asking me today why I was still so stressed…I don’t think she realizes all the shit we’ve gone through, recently.
We were told that it was finally time that our family had some good news and that positive things happen to us…I don’t remember who said it but by golly were they ever right!! I’m really ready for the good, positive things..BRING ‘EM ON!!!!!!!
Comments (8)
I hope your family does receive some good news soon. I can totally relate to the wanting a normal routine. As much as I enjoy my husband helping with my business, after almost five months I am ready for him to find another job.
Left this comment on my page but wanted to make sure you saw it
In elementary school we did not have enough money to buy new school clothes. The beginning of sixth grade I did get one new outfit, a pair of cranberry cords and a printed shirt from Sears. Seventh grade I was able to purchase all the clothes I wanted. Clothes were really important at my school. If you did not wear the right thing you were made fun of. I had been through enough of that in elementary school and even though I knew it was ridiculous I still want the Coke shirts and such. I guess that is why I make sure my children have nice clothes to wear. I enjoy giving them something I did not have. They appreciate them and even Casey enjoys shopping for his own clothes. Hope is such a people person that she would not be able to handle home schooling. We have to do something almost everyday or she goes crazy. I don’t think I have enough patience to home school my children. I respect you for doing so.
I got sunburned this weekend too I guess. My back doesn’t look it, but goddammit it fuckin itches.
you’ve kept a strong front going, and sometimes it’s okay to break down. have some extra chocolate with your cigs today. do something for you, and only for you.
Oh crap, this has nothing to do with your entry, but reading about your sunburn just reminded me that I forgot to drain the kids’ pool last night. It’s been up for 3 days now and we are going to end up with a UFO ring if we aren’t careful.
Fantasy house shopping isn’t stressful though is it? I play that game a lot. Actually finding out how one goes about buying that house is though and so I never get to that step.
Oh a sunburn! Yuck Yuck! Mine is doing that healing peeling and its killing me. I barely survive until my hubby gets home to have him scratch it!! Hope yours isn’t too bad and turns into a nice pretty tan!!
AMEN! To positive things happening now.
I’m so sorry to hear about your FiL, how’s your hunny doing? How’re the boys?
And no, moving is anything but normal. Particularly with none of the old furniture making it to the new place…it’s taking a little longer to get used to it all.
-M
Yup happy times coming…
How come every mama blog I read makes me want a cigarette? At least I’m jealous of you for that.
Quick visit.Use the sun tan lotion.Don’t be a lobster.Be back soon.